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30 Things I Love Right Now

NOº 4398

30 Things I Love Right Now: [08.03.11]


(1) Taylor Grocery in Taylor, MS. | (2) The Harrow and the Harvest by Gillian Welch (with Dave Rawlings). | (3) This Wheel’s on Fire: Levon Helm and the Story of the Band by Levon Helm (with Stephen Davis). | (4) The ticket stub I’m using as a bookmark in #3: “True West presents (all ages) Gillian Welch / Roseland Theater / 8 NW Sixth Avenue – Portland OR / Tues July 12 2011 8:00 PM / Gen Adm” | (5)Which is to say: confluence. | (6) Road trips. | (7) The Delta. | (8) The Delta Blues Museum. | (9) Muddy Waters: “When I was young I had the blues. I couldn’t pay my light bill. I couldn’t pay my rent. Now, I can pay my light bill. I can pay my rent. But I still have the blues…I guess I was born with them.” | (10) Hicks tamales in Clarksdale, MS. | (11) Cameras. | (12) Pictures. Moving ones, still ones. All points in between. | (13)Editing #12 above. Think I totally missed my calling. Or no: maybe my calling has come late. Or no: maybe my calling has been calling and calling and I’ve had my fingers in my ears. | (14) But really this attitude: Think I totally missed my calling. Or no: maybe my calling has come late. Or no: maybe my calling has been calling and calling and I’ve had my fingers in my ears. Because that’s all just noise. It’s okay to love what you love when you love it. In fact, that’s the whole point. | (15) Which is to say: “Keep your heart where your feet are.” Still. Always. | (16) “Hard Times on #2 above. | (17) Noticing. | (18) Documenting. | (19) Distortion. | (20) Ambient noise. Still. Always. | (21) Noticing, documenting a confluence (!) between #13-15 and #19-20. Sometimes noise is good, sometimes not. I’m not yet smart enough to always tell the difference. But I’m getting there. [Note-to-self: it has to do with portion control. A little goes a long way.] | (22) Notes-to-self. | (23) The Red Cat. | (24) Plan B. | (25) Collaborations. | (26) Friends [in order of appearance]… (27) Stuart… (28) Don… (29) Will… (30) Jason.

NOº 4228

30 Things I Love Right Now: [07.22.12]


(1) Cabbage. | (2) Cabbage soup. | (3) The Low Anthem. | (4) Simplicity. (No. Seriously. I swear.) | (5) St. Augustine. | (6) John Berger. | (7) Sweet potatoes. | (8) Edamame. | (9) Cilantro. | (10) Chili powder. | (11) Sesame oil. | (12) #7-11, together: “People either love it or hate it.” –Barista Dude at Urban Standard. Verdict: love it. Obviously. | (13) iMovie. | (14) This realization: my creative, uh, Enterprise is not unlike #7-11, together. Disparate elements. Whole greater — or anyway: much different — than the sum of its parts. | (15) This realization: if that’s the case, I have to be prepared for people to either love it or hate it. | (16) David Byrne. | (17) David Letterman. | (18) This realization: my creative Enterprise is not unlike #16-17 together. Not always (not ever, really) in equal proportions. But still. Disparate elements. Etc. | (19) This actual, real-life, back-in-the-day exchange between #16 and #17: [#17] — “Now I was listening to this record and also reading along, following along the liner notes, and I spent the better part of the afternoon being confused. But what you’re saying is the words in this particular instance don’t mean anything, do they?” [#16] — “Well. They do, but not if you try and figure ‘em out.” (Laughter.) [#17] — “Well, that was my mistake, see.” (More laughter.) | (20) How it’s sometimes like that inside my own head. Lots, actually. Not surprising. Or bad. Often it’s good for a chuckle. Plus sometimes, when I’m lucky, I get to add 16 + 17 and get 18. | (21) Wait. What? | (22) Purple-stalked space alien plants. With green-to-purple space alien berries. On… (23) …my new walk. Or anyway: the new extension of my old walk. | (24) This realization: sometimes you’re (I’m) doing something for a long time and you (I) don’t know why you’re doing it but you (I) keep doing it. And then you (I) say holy shit: I’ve been doing [fill-in-the-blank] for years and I’ve been wishing for years that I’d been doing that, I just thought I didn’t know how, that maybe one of these days I’d randomly, magically figure out how to START doing that, but probably somebody else would have to show me what to do. And that would be hard and embarrassing and I would suck and it would take a long time. And, to really do it, I’d need, like, all this [expensive, unwieldy, heavy, scary, etc.] equipment or whatever. And maybe some/most of that’s still true or semi-true. But. Meanwhile I’d already started (small). On my own. A long time ago. Unbeknownst to, you know, myself (or — of course — anybody else). Which is to say: ‘the new extension[s] of my old walk.’ | (25) Josh Ritter’s So Runs the World Away. | (26) This recollection: you (I) have to be willing to be small. Forever. ["The littlest birds sing the prettiest songs..." –J. Holland.] | (27) Which is to say: “Basically you have to suppress your own ambitions in order to be who you need to be.” –B. Dylan. (That sounds way more martyr-y and hair-shirt-y than it really is.) | (28)Hey, All You Hippies!’ by #3 above. | (29) My handy-dandy Sony ICD-BX700 Digital Audio Recorder. | (30) Starting the day with 30 Things. These ones, this day in particular.

NOº 4052

30 Things I Love Right Now: [c. 07.14.12]


(1) A crowded cafe. (This crowded cafe.) | (2) Rudimentary recording devices. | (3)The Weight” by The Band. | (4)Little Bird” (still) by L. Hannigan. The words. (Which are) “…dug from the rubble, cut from the kill.” | (5) Rush! (Still. But/and rediscovered.) | (6)Safety Dance” by Men Without Hats. | (7) Seasons within seasons. | (8) This bit of wisdom: keep your heart where your feet are. | (9) Grape leaves. | (10) I’ve said this before but: walking. Everywhere. (“Keep your heart where your feet are.”) | (11) Complicated and somewhat misleading thing to say but: being unattached. More unattached. Less attached? Something. | (12) Gray skies, cool temps. | (13) Reintegrating. | (14) I’ve said this before but: my dog. | (15) Pumpkin chocolate chip muffins. (From this crowded cafe.) | (16) The next 30 Things I write will be from/in Alabama. | (17) Surfaces. Textures. Distressed ones, especially. | (18) Repetition. | (19) Time. | (20) A good bucket. | (21) A good mop. | (22) The Lures. | (23) Sign(al)s. Physical. Metaphysical. “The heart is built for both, it seems.” (Thank heavens.) | (24) Ambient sound. | (25) Making choices: what I will carry with me and what I won’t. | (26) Moving pictures. | (27) Matinees. | (28) Influences that you (I) didn’t remember but that are undeniable, indelible. | (29) Sailing into destiny… | (30) Closer to the heart.

NOº 4016

Misfit Pilgrimage: NYC. 2012. [Misfit Mourning.]


30 Things. NYC. 2012. The Finish Line:

[06.30.12...THE MORNING AFTER. ETC.]

A good night’s sleep. O sleep! (O wait…)
The thing Guru Glen said. About signs. About how you go with your heart most of the time, “Fuck logic!” But you have to use your head sometimes, says the Guru Man. A little bit, anyway. Not everything’s a sign. (But. Um. Mister Guru? How come I don’t really believe you right now, even though the rule-following, i-dotting, t-crossing version of me really, really wants to? Actually. Maybe it’s because the rule-follower of my soul really wants to believe you and, though he’s, you know, a sweet guy and all, he’s usually a little clueless when it comes to saying Yes to the Universe. [Plus I guess it might also be because the aforementioned Guru Man saying something about signs at all is, in fact, given the context, quite clearly a sign in and of itself.])…
Turns out Steve Earle’s right [which I already knew (a) because it's Steve Earle and (b) because I been to NYC before, but...]: the girls are really pretty. And if ‘talk’ is a euphemism for something, uh, more sensual, well, then, yeah: I got the sense most of them wouldn’t ‘talk’ to me (the middle-aged Misfit Pilgrim [so-called]) either. But a fair number of them were generally cordial. A few of them even talked to me. One in particular. To my delight and their/her great credit…
Revelation: I don’t just want to be in the audience anymore…
“I wanna do my thing.” — J. Brown…
Revelation: L. Hannigan as Rockstar(ish) Avatar + Unwitting Guru: grace, poise… class… style/stylized… singular talent + authenticity + ambition (“…I was salted by your hunger…”)… keep an eye out for other people’s talent(s), fearlessly seek it/them, surround yourself with it/them… be smart… be fierce… be loyal… embrace new instruments, disciplines, even if it’s “late”… there is a path from background to foreground… Know (and honor) what you won’t say, sing, share. Etc…
“…be the person you want to find…” (…Find the person you want to “be”? Hint: MoMA, Fourth floor, Gallery 19…)
Which is to say: now I guess MoMA’s magic. A magic creative incubator or something. Or. No. Magic like a chrysalis
Revelation/reaffirmation: I want to draw…
Revelation (I’ve been avoiding): I want to find my voice, literally: play music, learn and sing songs. The thing about audiences notwithstanding (always dangerous to take me literally, word-for-word), I don’t have to let anybody else hear me. I have to hear me…
Revelation (I’ve been avoiding and really don’t want to acknowledge in public, but…): I want to write songs. Writing a novel? Not impossible. Writing a screenplay? Not impossible. Poem, essay, manifesto? Sure, sure, sure. But a song, even just one…even just a shitty one? That seems impossible to me. I mean. Jesus. I can’t even sing and play at the same time yet. So really the revelation is this: veer toward what seems impossible…
The Queensboro Bridge, impossibly brazen hunk of metal that it is…
Revelation (I’m clinging to): It doesn’t have to be good. It never has to be good. I’m still and always a poet. A poet who teaches. A poet who writes novels. A poet who takes moving pictures. A poet who talks to strangers. A poet who sings. Etc…

[REST EASY. REST ASSURED. WE'RE DONE.]

Preliminaries & Coordinates.

  • What we talk about when we talk about 30 Things.
  • What we talk about when we talk about The MoMA Moment.
  • 30 Things. NYC. 2012. The Running List: Part I.
  • 30 Things. NYC. 2012. The Running List: Part II.
  • 30 Things. NYC. 2012. The Running List: Part III.
NOº 3917

Misfit Pilgrimage: NYC. 2012. [The Night. They Drove. Old Dixie. Down. Na. Na. Na. Na. Na-Na-Na. Etc.]


[FYI/411/FWIW: This is not my video. That is, however, my barbaric yawp c. 1:46 1:47.5 or so. In brash support of JohnSmithJohnSmith. Much to the chagrin of the mean old "I hope he plays some of the songs from Once" lady sitting in front of me. Amen...]

30 Things. NYC. 2012. The Running List Continues:

[06.29.12...THE NIGHT. ETC.]

In fact: The dirty look the the mean old “I hope he plays some of the songs from Once” lady shot me after I whooped very loudly (acoustics!) for some dude she’d never heard of (AKA: JohnSmithJohnSmith) and certainly didn’t pay to hear sing in the Beacon Theater in New York City USA. Which is sort of why I did it. So he would know he was being heard. So he would know he was being heard here. In the Beacon Theater. NYC. USA. Also because he deserved it and so (of course) does the song. Rebel yell, indeed. (Or something.) Amen…
…[REDACTED: Unintelligible, mildly-to-moderately nonsensical, puzzling, and/or largely incoherent, etc.]…
…[REDACTED: Transparently self-serving and also, not surprisingly, mostly [if not, in fact, completely] inaccurate, etc.]…
…[REDACTED: Embarrassing, TMI, etc.]…
Jesus. Whatever: “Adult Contemporary Music.” So-called. (“…Embarrassing, TMI, etc.”)
Loyalty to the band. I mean, like, from within the band. To each other, I mean. Demonstrably, I mean…
Having seen your (my) favorite musicians as both headliners and opening acts. In different cities, different seasons (in your/my life, in theirs). Not unlike seeing your favorite sports team at home and on the road. “We’re in this together,” we can tell ourselves, which is, after all (for better or worse; please see the truth/prophecy below) how the audience is supposed to feel and be…
This, as truth or prophecy: “Music is a succession of tones and tone combinations so organized as to have an agreeable impression on the ear and its impression on the intelligence is comprehensible….These impressions have the power to influence occult parts of our soul and of our sentimental spheres and…this influence makes us live in a dreamland of our fulfilled desires or in a dreamed hell.” — Arnold Schoenberg
The psychics stay open late in NYC
And yet: having the presence of mind to not avail myself of their services. The ‘occult parts of [my] soul’ can’t take much more influence right now…
Which is to say: discretion…
Which is to say: the better part of valor…
After. Walking back down Broadway, in a sleep-deprived/occult/sentimentality-induced stupor (fulfilled desires + dreamed hell, etc.) and looking up at the high-rise at Broadway and W 70th: someone, a woman, I think, silhouetted for several unbroken minutes in a window at least a dozen stories up. The mystery, constancy, and grace of the dark shape she makes for the whole city to see, if they’ll only look…

[TO BE CONTINUED...]

Preliminaries & Coordinates.

  • What we talk about when we talk about 30 Things.
  • What we talk about when we talk about The MoMA Moment.
  • 30 Things. NYC. 2012. The Running List: Part I.
  • 30 Things. NYC. 2012. The Running List: Part II.
NOº 3941

30 Things I Love Right Now: [c. 07.07.12]


(1) A/C | (2) Air, period. Between my aging body and the hardwood floor. | (3) Ginger slaw. | (4) Serendipity. (I think.) | (5) Escape velocity. | (6) That part in Jaws where Chief Brody’s slinging chum into the water and he’s bored and pissed and feels put out, but then The Great Fish reveals itself and he drops the ladle and backs away muttering, “You’re gonna need a bigger boat.” | (7) This realization: I’m gonna need a bigger boat. | (8) My charmed friend Ben, who told me it means (a) I’m on the right track and (b) now I have to go to Ireland. With a one-way ticket. And he was totally serious. And he’s charmed, so he must know. | (9) Levon Helm. | (10) The acoustics in my empty summer apartment. | (11) The sound of my own voice. | (12) The Misfit Pilgrimage queue (in no particular order): Le Poisson Rouge. Grand Canyon. Christ of the Ozarks. Clarksdale. Woodstock. Big Pink. Galway. Dublin. Belfast. Derry. | (13) “I don’t use the accident because I deny the accident.” J. Pollock. | (14) Heady conversation. Overheard. | (15) So I guess it’s official: I’ve done turned into Ricky Fitts: “…That’s the day I realized that there was this entire life behind things, and this incredibly benevolent force that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video’s a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember… I need to remember… Sometimes there’s so much beauty in the world, I feel like I can’t take it, and my heart is just going to cave in.” R. Fitts. | (16) Which is to say: the beautiful young family that is, as I type, reflected in my laptop screen, their equitable arrangement: papoose, sippy cup, intermittent traded bites of croissant, sips of coffee, juice, etc. | (17) Which is to say: etc. etc. etc. “…there’s so much beauty in the world…” | (18) Investing, but not in the way that grows money. | (19) Silky jazz. The coffee. | (20) The mean coffee shop lady who’s not really mean, per se. | (21) Rest. | (22) Some new lines on my face. | (23) Faces generally. | (24) Slow, steady(ish) progress on my guitar. | (25) Slow, steady(ish) progress in coming to terms with the ways I’m a little bit crazy. | (26) Making my sister watch the fireworks show on TV with me. | (27) Taking the time to enumerate. | (28) That there’s an Ulster Co. NY and that Woodstock and Big Pink are in it. (Please see #4 and #12 above.) | (29) Rabbit holes. | (30) Music people. The rabbit hole of that idea.

NOº 3924

Misfit Pilgrimage: NYC. 2012. [The 8 Millions.]


30 Things. NYC. 2012. The Running List Continues:

[06.29.12...CIRCA MID AFTERNOON.]

The very freckled woman walking west on (near?) Central Park South
The way NYC sticks to your shoe
The way life is stranger than fiction
Cliches
New York. In June. (How about you? Except for it seems they’ve secretly replaced New York in June with New York in August.)…
Ambient percussion
Heat in this city
Scope
Scale
MoMA. (Did I say that already? Yes. Yes I did.) Fourth floor, Gallery 19, to be exact…
Random encounters that are simultaneously [REDACTED: Spurious, misleading, redundant, mild-to-moderate histrionics, etc. Please see: 'The MoMA Moment' link below and/or/better-yet this Frank O'Hara poem. (e.g., "...happy at the thought possibly so.") Even if happy isn't quite the perfect word, it'll have to do.]…
“Cheers.” As both salutation and send-off…
Also: MoMA, Gallery 16, the far wall, by the window. One: Number 31, 1950. My first-ever Pollock in person…

[TO BE CONTINUED...]

Preliminaries & Coordinates.

NOº 3892

Misfit Pilgrimage: NYC. 2012. ["My name? My name is Nino!"]


30 Things. NYC. 2012. The Running List Begins:

[06.29.12...CIRCA EARLY AFTERNOON.]

#[?]. National treasures (i.e., NYC)
#[?]. Cockamamie schemes
This thought: living in NYC seems (to me) either an indulgence or an endurance sport. Notwithstanding these epic 8-mile afternoon walks I’ve taken to lately on my (so-called) mountain getaway, I’m not so much the endurance sport type. Indulgence, however, I can swing…
but I mean, yes: endurance too. In quiet ways. As, too, a big loud aspiration…
Walking. In NYC…
Broadway. The actual street (or, if you prefer: the broad way)…
Avenue of the Americas. The avenue and also the big loud aspiration. The plurality
The construction guys [see above] who hailed me, demanded I film them. [Me: "Say something. Say something. Say something...New York-y. Or what's your name? Make something up..." Construction Guy #1: "My name? My name is Nino!"]…
MoMA. Misfit Mecca. This particular misfit’s, anyway…
Jasper Johns

[INSERT MIND-BOGGLING MoMA MOMENT HERE.]

You seriously couldn’t write this shit. [Long pause, kneeling, pen poised, notebook on knee.] And maybe I can’t…
This lines thing is pretty cool: “Sol LeWitt. Three kinds of lines and all their combinations. 1. Straight lines, 2. Not-straight lines, 3. Broken lines, 4. Alternate straight and broken lines, 5. Alternate straight and not-straight lines, 6. Alternate not-straight and broken lines, 7. Alternate straight, not-straight, and broken lines. Seven black and white etchings in an edition of twenty-five copies. Printed by K. Brown, Crown Point Press, Oakland. Published by Parasol Press, Ltd. NYC. 1973.”
Except #4 and #5 are reversed. I f–ked it up. Because I’m still flustered. In fact, there’s a very good chance I could not be more flustered than I am right now. And. I mean. I can get flustered, with the best of ‘em. It’s one of my superpowers. But this here? This is a Whole New Realm of Flustered. Not bad, really. Just new. Big(ger). Loud(er). Etc…

[TO BE CONTINUED...]

Preliminaries & Coordinates.

 

NOº 3710

30 Things I Love Right Now: [06.??.12]


(1) Slideshows. | (2) When they cut the grass. (“They” being not slideshows but men with unwieldy machines.) | (3) Serendipitous typos (i.e., “When they cut the crass,” “When they cut the gass”). | (4)15. Blueberry Pop Tarts… 16. Pez candy… 17. Andrew Cuomo,” especially the part about Andrew Cuomo because it cracks me up and I don’t know why. (And I wrote it.) I also wrote a poem that has Andrew Cuomo in it. I think it (the Andrew Cuomo meme) has something to do with fathers and sons. Maybe? | (5) After the rain, which is, like, a song by the Nelson twins, I think, but that’s not what I love. I’m being literal. | (6) Trying to come up with 30 Things very fast. | (7) Allowing “very fast” to be a relative term. | (8) This thing: | . | (9) Crazy junkets. | (10) This conversation with my sister, in which she said: “It’s crazy. It’s physics. And I can’t even open an Entenmann’s box, so…” | (11) Rhythm and Repose. (Yes, also literally, but in this case the new Glen Hansard album, in which he sings (yet again) about star-crossed love. Or no love at all.) | (12) That oregano stuff Michel gave me. | (13) Making soup. On the hottest day of the year. | (14) Jhumpa Lahiri, specifically her sentences. | (15) Readability in other people’s writing, which — tellingly — is not something I always aim for in my own writing. Hmm. | (16) [Forgetting #16.]| (17) Oh: forgot: fathers and sons. | (18) Subway trains. | (19) My thrift store crate with the eagle on it. | (20) Instant coffee. | (21) The pet-sitter lady. | (22) Reading. Really late at night. | (23) Epsom salt. | (24) Symbols. Of all kinds, really. | (25) Practice. | (26) Epic walks. Necessitating an epsom-salt soak, they’re so epic. And I’m so not. | (27) Friends who forgive. | (28) A sister who understands and says, hell, yes: GO. Even though she probably wouldn’t do it herself. | (29) Walking into town for dinner on a Friday night. | (30) Dishwasherlessness.

NOº 3678

30 Things I Love Right Now: [06.10.12]


1. The Commonwealth.
2. Which is to say: the Old Dominion.
3. Which is to say: Virginia, my home state.
4. [I suppose that's really just one thing, the sum total of #1 - #3, however: I really, really love it right now. Always have, even if it has been from afar for the better part of sixteen years. I think I really, really love it right now because it really, really feels like home and, for reasons I can't quite understand much less articulate, maybe that hasn't always been the case. I'm reminded of that one T.S. Eliot quote: "We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time." I mean. That's sort of dramatic, but that's pretty much how it feels.]
5. In particular: Southwestern Virginia.
6. In particular: Blacksburg, Virginia.
7. A recollection: I once brought some of my Alabama friends to Blacksburg to watch a portentous football game, over a decade ago now. I was a much more rabid football fan then, and this wasn’t one of the times when Virginia (Blacksburg in particular) felt foreign to me. I was proud of it. I missed it. I, well, I loved it right [then], and I was happy to show it off. Anyway, my friend Stuart was in the group and he said something to the effect of “I can see how a Beitelman could be made here.” I sort of knew and sort of didn’t know what he meant by that — I think it had to do with the granola-mountain-town meets College-of-Engineering vibe that pervades. Also the kind of stark (but not too stark; not too anything) beauty that lives here: big Gothic gray limestone campus buildings; medium-sized green (or yellow-red-orange or a bleak, dun-colored brown) mountains all around; also the earnest, clean-cut, handsome men and women; also (and maybe especially) the scrubbed-clean (and, yes) laconic orderliness of it all: even the hippies are rule-followers at heart. But anyway I liked that he said it even as it also made me feel a little  uneasy, like an imposter, not quite granola enough, not quite orderly enough, not quite handsome enough…and then, in other ways, a little too too. (Too neurotic. Too, well, yeah: too neurotic.) Etc. And that recollection leads to…
8. …this complementary one: when I was still married (to a particularly handsome, clean-cut, etc., woman I met in Blacksburg), we were talking about our ideal places to live and when I put Blacksburg atop my list, she looked at me like I had three heads. This from a woman who, like me, holds two degrees from the university there and who spent her formative (admittedly  not always happy) early adult years in Southwestern Virginia. On a related note, I recently asked my friend John (himself a Tech graduate) if he could ever see himself living in Blacksburg. He quickly, almost apologetically, said no, and when I asked him why, he offered a pensive, “Not enough to do?” Which is to say: a lot of people graduate from here. They end up back in northern Virginia or else they get farmed out to Atlanta or Charlotte and points farther away (i.e., Birmingham, Alabama). They think mostly fond thoughts of their time in a (the) quintessential college town, maybe they visit now and again, but what’s past is past. But now I think I know what Stuart was getting at: I too can see how a Beitelman could be — was — made here. And, it seems to me, that’s what home feels like. Or else that’s what home feels like to me.
9. Evergreen trees.
10. The daily walk into town, during which I pass…
11. …the great big brick house at 607 Giles Road, with its tin roof and it’s dilapidated out-structures (one of which I can also see from my kitchen window, when I write, standing, at the counter)…
11. …and also the tiny one-room house at 306 Giles Road, with its little porch.
12. That I could be very happy living in both places. Both or either.
13. Pilgrim at Tinker Creek by Annie Dillard. Especially the chapter called “Seeing.”
14. The Namesake by Jhumpa Lahiri.
15. Wide-open-window weather in June.
16. Highland Gaelic Ale.
17. Hardwood floors.
18. My sweet old resilient dog.
19. Thrift stores. Thrift stores in college towns, where you can buy good books for $2.
20. Social media brown-outs.
21. WUVT.
22. The good air here.
23. The good water here.
24. The good green grass here. (Turns out it actually is greener.)
25. This (as always and, as always, the ways it makes itself new to me): Being an artist means: not numbering and counting, but ripening like a tree, which doesn’t force its sap, and stands confidently in the storms of spring, not afraid that afterward summer may not come. It does come. But it comes only to those who are patient, who are there as if eternity lay before them, so unconcernedly silent and vast. I learn it every day of my life, learn it with pain I am grateful for: patience is everything!
26. Which is to say: summer. And patience.
27. Which is to say: being an artist.
28. Also disappearing.
29.  And reappearing.
30. Which is to say (as always): “…every exit…an entrance somewhere else.